It's the end of the mth again.
now i want to make it a point to blog every mth end.
i need to grumble everything out else i'll go bonkers.
i had my renewal of contract signed but im not happy at all.
it now feels like a drag than any thing else.
"No pay raise, 1/4 renewal bonus."
it's really pathetic in my opinion.
i may start off not well.. but most of the time i hit my minimum target.
by Jan i'm already quite consistent in my sales.
i've no bad attendance records, not much of issues apart of redemptions.
why am i getting all these shits???
comparing the effort i had put in. Sigh. Disappointment is the word!
is my sales THAT bad compared to LL???!!?!??!!
someone answer me please.
Every mth to hit 100CP for 3mths to get increment?
fuck shit huh. I DIE DIE also only got 90++ CP
does it means i will never get my increment no matter how hard i work??
then wth am i working hard for??
since Jan my sales had always been 90++!
LIKE WTF LAH!!! im always stuck there!
this mth target never hit again. yes, stucked at 9o++. 94 this mth!
sigh.. it's wearing me out, totally.
current situation is not productive.
2 X effort = 1 X results
what i want is
1 X effort = 2 X results.
and seriously, i think the comm sucks pathetically.
or maybe it's recession, thats why. but it still sucks for now.
frankly speaking, money is not an issue.
i dont stay on for the $$ coz it's nothing fantastic.
if not for her, perhaps, i have already change a new job.
My motivator keeps me going.
but when motivator does not motivates anymore....
i wonder what will happen...
we shall see how...
Sometimes i do wish she can hear all my grumbles..
but she's my boss.. i cant grumble these to her...
there's quite a few disatisfactions in me
i wish she can hear me out..
my disatisfications wont turn into actions
but i just need to vent it out..
Will she bother to listen from A-Z?
i dont like pouring out my stuffs and get stopped off at M or halfway thru.
somtimes there are just stuffs u need to grumble it off.
it's so suffocating to be all kept inside.
i need some inner peace, really.
i want someone to talk to.
i want to pour my frustrations out.
i want to cry my heart out.
i want to feel a tinge of happiness.
=(( i hardly got anyone of this.
i feel so sad. =(( SIGH.
i feel so worn out.
so alone.Labels: ^roro, momentous, ramblings