我的心情起伏 - 内心世界

*Thursday, June 10, 2010

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

sociophobic

i still find that no point being nice
i still find that i have predjudice against certain kind of people
i still find that im not good enough even how much i have done
i still find that i still stick very strong to my beliefs
i still find that....

im not a good person.

NO GOOD!

selfish, demanding, stubborn, bias, irrational, emotional, inconsiderate, evil.... n more
i just not what i appear to be.

devil and angel is differentiate by just a thin line.

im so in the grey section. sigh.

the moment i can start having meals on my own is the moment i wont have any more unnecessary ppl in my life anymore....

im starting to have human phobia...

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 1:04 AM. 0 comments

*Monday, May 24, 2010

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

things happen for a reason
people are there for a lesson.

from her i see my good
from him i see my faults.

here is my learning ground.
but after all the lessons

it will be time
to move on.

i want my property license
i want my insurance license
i want my big big money
- at my own pace -

but before i get all those
i got to learn all the techniques
the techniques to survive and prosper.

i will have a life, i call the shots
i will have a life, i have the control
i will have a life, the way i want it.

first thing first,
hello, where my driving license and my car?

Labels: awakening, ramblings

by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 1:03 AM. 0 comments

*Saturday, October 03, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

Being One and Acting Like One IS totally different.

acting stupid doesnt mean i am
acting silly doesnt mean i am

what i seems to be
doesnt justify what i am.

dont say doesnt mean i dont know
dont react doesnt mean i dont feel

now a days no people play it hard.
people use mind games, tactical words and strategic moves.
im weak on words therefore my game plan is to have psychology games and strategic moves.
im more into psychology games.

if everything is used wisely and accurately,
you will be able to manipulate a person at your own will.
you can make the whole world trust you yet you know you dont trust them at all.
they can be those that, when they are of no usage anymore, they can be discard as and when they like.

for me, it never gets tiring at all.
i like the challenge of getting a person who is hard to get along with
to actually get along with me and feel comfortable totally.
i want to make everyone (that i dislike) to actually feel comfortable with me and place their trust on me.
i want to assure myself that i have the ability to make people feel comfortable to the degree i want it to.
the harder the challenge is, the more satisfaction i have.
it might sound psychotic to some.

i enjoy appearing dumb, silly, crazy, nonsense, immature, playful, cant be bother etc etc..
people have less guard on people like this.
people round them up as, childish, still young, not serious etc etc
people have less responsibilities for me also.
im someone who doesnt like responsibilities since young.
i'll shun away as much as i can.
i dont like the trouble, dont like the problems and even dont like the stress.
but that doesnt mean i cant handle.
sometimes circumstances forced out the other potentials of you.
but the bottomline will still be :-
i will only unveil my real self when i needed to.
otherwise, i'll still be silly, nonsense, carefree, playful me.

actually there's alot of hidden power within me that i've yet to discover.

i realised i always do things not at my maximum power.
i am a fast learner but i always appear to be rather slow.
perhaps due to laziness.
my guitar learnt half way and im getting lazy. =/

i am an efficient and effective worker if i want to.
the degree of output at work already tell me that i am not fully utilising myself.
if i am more focus
if i am more concentrated
if i am more driven
if i am more energized
1300~ will not just be my max commission that i will be getting.
perhaps that's only my 30-40%.
sigh but i get lazy every now and then.
this job is getting a little boring at times.
my focus span is short or im too lazy to focus for too long.
i get distracted very easily but when im focus, i really am, extremely.
it just a matter of getting the momentum but it breaks so often here. gosh.

i used to be a sharp-edged person.
straightforward, blunt, immediate etc...
now i've become a rounder..
dont have the idea whether is it good or bad
but i felt i have changed alot.
apart from heart matters,
i no longer that type of impulsive, daring, decisive person to a point that my teacher ever said :" she reacts to whatever said or does to her "
wonder is this a lope side or...?
im no longer so chatty that was being called a chatterbox.
i have quiet down alot.
till some point of time that i thought i am being a mute. -_-"

used to be a happy-go-lucky person
how about now?
i have no idea.

even the china chinese teacher who taught me for a short while
commented that i have quiet down.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 12:21 AM. 0 comments

*Wednesday, September 30, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

simplicity reflections

it's the time again that make me compare between time and happiness.

there are people:
who are feeling happy earning big bucks
who are feeling unhappy earning big bucks
who are feeling happy earning a meagre income
who are feeling unhappy earning a meagre income
who are feeling happy earning lilttle (just enough to survive)
who are feeling unhappy earning little (just enough to survive)

sometimes it depends if you have the life to enjoy certain degree of prosperity in your life.
or even, is your life meant to have certain prosperity level.

e.g will be like a person who keep wanting to earn enough to substain a luxury life. they worked damn hard etc to gain that amount of money but yet along the way, some things happen, they never have to life for it anymore.

i wish to keep myself level-headed.
i have dreams, goals even though is not big one.
i want my happiness to be a journey, not a destination.
i wish to feel what i want to feel
i wish to enjoy what i want to enjoy
i wish to love the way i want it to
i wish to have things happen the way i want it to. (it's all simple little things)

im a easily contented person.
i dont ask for much or even more.
i hope of a job that earns meagre income for savings and spending.
i hope for friends whom i care and love to go through my life with me.
i hope to feel happy through my journey of life.

is there actually a work place whereby makes you feel like home?
my ideas might be old-fashioned but i love work environment that makes one feel home.
everyone is helping each other out,
no individual internal challenges for survival,
no gossipings, no backstabbing, no underhands,
where you sweat and bleed together.
we eat together what we can afford at that moment.
this is my ideal working place.
but i guess, the only word that i will receive will be "dream!"

being in this current work place makes me realised i am never cut-out for sales.
i abhor the stress i am getting.
i abhor the fighting for survive game.
i hate having to speak for the sake of it.
i hate to follow rules and regulations.
the above reasons would be more than enough for me to step into sales job if i ever were to leave here which i forsee happening soon in time to come.

my initial thoughts was just to stay on and help out as it's patricia who pull me in.
at first i thought, there's a friend in there working so it wont be so out of place and lonely.
god knows why, soon after i came, she got to leave.
one by one leaving and all i can think of it just to stay on and "help" out.
afterall there's nothing to lose and they were short-handed and also thinking cant just leave like that.
seems to have no loyalty (anywhere i goes, loyalty will be one of the traits i see myself to) to abandon the group just like that.
another main reason is not wanting to see someone so stress and feeling helpless over such situation. a person more is better than a person less. (since then already thinking in the sense that i can be there for that person at least. cannot leave the person in lurch.)

slowly time passed, new people comes and go.
everything had become a routine.
it just goes round and round..

there is a batch that i like alot.
where everyone is like brothers and sisters.
during that period of time, the "survivor" game is the harmless.
no, i dont even call it survivor game, more of a "brotherhood" game.
too bad, good times dont last.
that was also one of the better months.

next was my motivator.
it was never never easy.
i get distracted most of the times.
i emo more than often.
i see myself looking kind of lost.
it is getting harder and harder to be optimistic.
yes, work is still work.
body is moving, hands are typing, work as per normal.
what seems wrong is the inner self.
the initial concept already started is a different way.
so it ended up with "what's the point now"

things are stagnant now.
in fact i used to be yearning to come to work.
i feel happy everyday regardless of what happen.
even the sky drop i can treat as nothing happen.
that's when you have a friend with you at work,
things are definately not the same.

things are definately not the same now too.
it just that all the things i used to feel goes on a reverse side.
sometimes it feel like the world had toppled upside down.
some might say i am too extreme but different people had different perspective and different way of feeling things.
and this is the way i feel. accept it or not.
what matters to me, REALLY extremely matters.
what doesnt, REALLY extremely doesnt.
i am a See-Saw which you will see it only falling on one side.

time will heal?
time will only numb the feelings you gone through
time will only leave scar after hurts
time will only provide you the end results
but never heal.

it gets a little annoying to be speaking people's language most of the times.
it gets a little depressing when there's no one to really talk to in office.
it gets a little taxing to force yourself for focus and concentration.
it gets a little frustrating to see yourself living through motion.
it gets a full lots of shit to feel upside down.

can someone slap me upside down and wake me up?
i dont wish to trap in this bloody emotions roller-coaster.
it is quite hard for me to snap out of it once im stuck.
i am losing control of how to handle myself.

sigh forget it.
thinking im purely emo-ing.
drained.
fuck it man.

can my feelings go abit more simplified?

Labels: awakening, ramblings

by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 12:20 AM. 0 comments

*Thursday, August 06, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

demand demand

whenever you start enjoying something,
you tend to get attach to it
because it brings a smile on your face.
no one will ever want to stay away from things
that bring them happiness even just a tinge of it.

detachment is just a matter of choice.

---

yet sometimes when it gets close
people start to demand and expect more
more than what it initially it should be.

sometimes i do take things for a little granted
but deep down i know what am i suppose to do.
yet most times i just choose to ignore.

i see what i like to
i hear what i listen to
i do what i prefer to
i care whom i want to.

i tried to be nice to everyone
but im not a superwoman
whom i can give my attention to all equally.
so.. most time are for my priorities. (you cant blame me)

i dislike to be demand of my nice.
i hate to be told what to do.
i abhor doing things out of guilt.
i only wish to do things willingly or even out of own appreciations.

i will appreciate if people dont give unnecessary comment
when i dont do things the way they want it.
dont do small actions to get my attentions
dont say little stuffs to make me feel bad

if thats the case, i would rather jolly well get out of your life.
because even my parents cant demand much out of me
who are you and your position in my life
to demand this and that?

do tell me if you find a good reason. thankyou

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:51 PM. 0 comments

*Sunday, May 03, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

simple

stay simple
be content

speak less
listen more

eat less
drink more

think less
do more

take less
give more

hate less
love more

simplicity is bliss.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 9:37 PM. 0 comments

*Friday, May 01, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

sigh!

It's the end of the mth again.
now i want to make it a point to blog every mth end.
i need to grumble everything out else i'll go bonkers.

i had my renewal of contract signed but im not happy at all.
it now feels like a drag than any thing else.
"No pay raise, 1/4 renewal bonus."
it's really pathetic in my opinion.
i may start off not well.. but most of the time i hit my minimum target.
by Jan i'm already quite consistent in my sales.
i've no bad attendance records, not much of issues apart of redemptions.
why am i getting all these shits???
comparing the effort i had put in. Sigh. Disappointment is the word!

is my sales THAT bad compared to LL???!!?!??!!
someone answer me please.

Every mth to hit 100CP for 3mths to get increment?
fuck shit huh. I DIE DIE also only got 90++ CP
does it means i will never get my increment no matter how hard i work??
then wth am i working hard for??
since Jan my sales had always been 90++!
LIKE WTF LAH!!! im always stuck there!

this mth target never hit again. yes, stucked at 9o++. 94 this mth!
sigh.. it's wearing me out, totally.

current situation is not productive.
2 X effort = 1 X results
what i want is
1 X effort = 2 X results.

and seriously, i think the comm sucks pathetically.
or maybe it's recession, thats why. but it still sucks for now.

frankly speaking, money is not an issue.
i dont stay on for the $$ coz it's nothing fantastic.
if not for her, perhaps, i have already change a new job.

My motivator keeps me going.
but when motivator does not motivates anymore....
i wonder what will happen...
we shall see how...

Sometimes i do wish she can hear all my grumbles..
but she's my boss.. i cant grumble these to her...
there's quite a few disatisfactions in me
i wish she can hear me out..
my disatisfications wont turn into actions
but i just need to vent it out..

Will she bother to listen from A-Z?
i dont like pouring out my stuffs and get stopped off at M or halfway thru.
somtimes there are just stuffs u need to grumble it off.
it's so suffocating to be all kept inside.

i need some inner peace, really.
i want someone to talk to.
i want to pour my frustrations out.
i want to cry my heart out.
i want to feel a tinge of happiness.

=(( i hardly got anyone of this.
i feel so sad. =(( SIGH.

i feel so worn out.
so alone.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 12:28 AM. 0 comments

*Monday, April 13, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

wtf

Me: What u do u think of Dip in PSY
You: Gd n interesting
Me: Think so too. consider taking it part time.
You: Gd idea

what kinda response is this?
like wtf huh.
thanks man.

or am i too critical
or are u just cant be bothered with what im saying?

like wth am i telling u all this
or even care abt what u'll response.

fuck myself.
period!

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:56 PM. 0 comments

*Sunday, April 12, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

remember this!

when words underlined with one's selfishness
thats when words, are just words.
- when the basic of humanity, Care, is not there.

when logics get the upper hands
thats when actions are to be taken.
- when emotions are to be cast aside.

this is One quick-sand, i tried very hard not to fall into yet the more i resist it, the more deeper i'm sinking in. and now.. i did and fall deeply.
perhaps it's time to withdraw myself out of it
before i got buried and suffocated!

the emotional baggage i had been holding on
the invisible stress i had been withstanding
the seemingly happiness i had been enjoying
had to put to a STOP!

it's time to set in those
boundaries
and
limitations!
.
.
.
.
.
.
when u always try means and ways to make ppl happy
u tend to forget abt ur own existence, ur own happiness.

happiness shld not be given by others
it shld be within yourself.

why be happy becoz others are
which probably
when u're happy, others are not.

afterall, B is just B. forever a B never a F to start with.
perhaps...
it's my fault to start with.
.
.
.
.
.
.
tml will be completely a brand new start.
with or without - contract.

Contracts do get expired.
just like the Sweets.

expired on the 13/4/2009!.

It ENDS today after the clock strike 12!
everything!
snap out of delusion!

but...
i want to know,
am i a FRIEND to you?
or just a worker.
a worker whom u can talk to.

a truthful ans will be good.

perhaps...
all these written here to you are just -
craps, nonsensical, irrational, childish, pointless, unecessary comments, assumptions and arguements.
BUT..
that spells my insecurity, uncertainty, anxiety.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:12 PM. 0 comments

*Monday, April 06, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

argh!~

im a pessimist
im a sadist
im a emo-ist.

it's better to stay clear from me.

i hate it when i expose too much of myself.

i become
very reliant
very dependent

i hate ppl seeing me that way.

i want my walls back.
i want to be non-chalant.
i want to be or appear to be independent.
i want to be able to walk away easily
i want to be able to turn my back on anyone!

i want the source of joy to come from within
not from external
which i had been leaning towards to.

i dont wanna to get attach to anyone!!!!
NO ONE!!!

maybe i shld just stop msging her.
like.. really stop.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:58 PM. 0 comments

*Tuesday, March 31, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

like WTF!

sometimes i feel myself losing the grip.
sometimes i feel myself out of control.
sometimes i feel myself so emotional.
sometimes i feel.....
myself almost wanting to just give up.

i've yet to start doubting myself again
but seeing the rate it's running
perhaps, soon.

spoke to Kel ley.
told him i doubt abt my capabilities when he as a newbie
can actually bring in numbers at days i cant.
and he agreed.

seeing the rate i started at the beginning of this mth
seeing the rate i ran at the end of the mth
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!!?!

---

im upset becoz of my numbers.
i really tot im gonna get 0 at the end day.
im upset becoz of what is happening.
it SHLDNT or CANNOT happen to me.
im upset becoz of how i reacted to your harmless joke.
it not the right way to respond and im disappointed.
im upset becoz of what u commented abt the min target.
no one actually take it as a joke, esp me n LL.

the very reason why i get so upset abt the min thing becoz
that comment discredit us for our efforts put in and the seriousness we see it as.
it's as though u are trying to say this to us
:"u think u're here to sit and have fun?"
- thats frm worker's point of view.

but i also know...
if T isnt happy with the results and with min not hit
she can happily just say
:"Get rid of them!"
which in turn i believe u can do nth abt it when she's serious.!
the anger is a sign of fear and anxiety of losing anyone right?
thus that comment.
- thats frm your point of view.

but i believe...
though min target is impt and nt there for fun
one shld be judged on overall performance instead of one subject.
overall performance is the most critical
to judge if the person's a worker or a player.

so i believe, if one is a business-minded person
shld be able to see that clearly and make good judgements.

---

my knuckle pain like fuck! swollen n red!
the guys are nice enough to let me hit.
it vented out all that was trapped in my heart through pain.
i feel the relief at the end of it
even though the pain is like WTF!!
=))

---

it's no doubt, subconsciously, u created an invisible stress on me.
it's more of how to answer to you than myself.
it isnt your fault though but some times it just crippled me.
(it's especially why i dont like to befriend bosses.)

tested and proven, u matters much more than stress itself.

u always make me open up myself totally.
somehow i hate and love that!
hate becoz i dont hv things to keep to myself. (makes me feel bare)
love becoz i can open up to u like nobody's business. =)

but.. really thanks for those that you did and didnt do.
appreciate that!

i ever out of the blue sent u a "u keep me going" msg.
whether you give a thought abt it or not
and yes,
u're the one that keep me going.
u're the one that keep me motivated.

u may think it's stupid and nonsensical for all you want.
u may think it's like some worker trying to bootlick or whatsoever.

believe or not is up to u.

---

im tired. i need more peace and zzz

Lord, please give me that!
and to Her too! =)
thank you!

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:03 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, March 28, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

limitations

perhaps it's exceed the limit i gave myself.

i've been giving way too much than i expect.
i dont know if it's right or wrong to do so
but im starting to feel......

something.... uneasy.

perhaps it's time for me to review my limit.

it's just me..
too me to start with..

i get too nice to people im attach to
which makes me do things over the norm limitations.
some times, i hate myself for that!

but but but...
it's been so long i really meet someone
that i really wish and want to know and understand... deeper...
and it's U, yes u didnt see wrongly.

happiness is short-lived.
so does friendship nowadays.
how long will the ship that i boarded keep sailing?
or will it just break down on me someday
and left me struggling in the middle of the sea?

and like i said
im hopefully skeptical.

thats me.
someone who has doubts
someone who feels insecure
someone who needs assurance
someone who wants truthful words
Every now and then.

there are also things that dont go thru words but thru understanding.
however, people do get the wrong cue, give the wrong signal, say the wrong words so how truthful is the cue, signal and words can be?
i hate sugar-coated stuffs as much as i like straighforwardness.
i hate guessing games as much as i like clear-cut words.

certain truth might hurt when it comes right into ur face
but it's always best off than living in denial and get hurt completely by lies.

dont know what's all this ramblings about
but i know im feeling shit inside.

qns, doubts, worries, uncertainty
u name it, i have it.

SIGH.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:29 PM. 0 comments

*Thursday, March 26, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

just me

after being sick for one day
the suddenly numbness attacked me.

now i feel absolutely nothing.
i dont emo
i dont smile
im not feeling sad
im not feeling happy
nothing at all.

i think it feels more like a living zombie.

maybe that's good afterall
then i wont feel so much stress within.

i've abandon every emotions from my heart that i had been holding for some time.
the emotions that crippled me.
it's gone completely which make me wonder what shld i be feeling now?

i dont know and dont wish to think about it.
it's like pressing the refresh button.
the heart renewed. =)

or maybe it's time for me to be non-chalant.
turn back to my old self.
i want that back - when i care nothing at all!

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 11:53 PM. 0 comments

*Tuesday, March 24, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

lost of control

it's a total lost of control.

i've channel too much stress into myself.
it nearly eat me up, break me down, slap me upside down.

i took too much things into consideration
too much into my brain.
i need to cut down
to where i started.

focus on my individual target
and monthly target. period.

all i need to have things right
is purely doing the best on my part.

as long as i did my ultimate best
the result doesnt matter.
it's the process that really counts.

i know i can do it!
yes i can, and will do it!

even if i fail, at least i tried my best
no regrets then. =))

first thing first
i need to prioritize my stress matter!

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 9:18 PM. 3 comments

*Friday, March 20, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

consistency

consistently being worn out
consistently being stress
consistently trying to be as close as No.1
consistently trying to be happy
consistently trying to be motivated
consistently trying to maintain everything
consistently trying to be consistent.

it's really out of my control.
i've never tried being so consistent before.
it's never me to start with.

especially when my mood like a roller coaster, it hardly been consistent yet im doing everything to surpress it, to maintain its consistency.
i never been a consistent person.
it's never me to start with.

oh gosh!~
it's really tearing me apart.

can someone please tell me that i dont have to be so consistent all the time?

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:41 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, March 14, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

no words

no words could describe:

the stress that im withstanding (its more than what i expect myself to handle, though still coping well)
the happiness that im having (working there)
the fun that im getting (with colleagues, boss and even with the food stalls ladies)
the friends that im making (boss, tm, colleagues and even the food stall ladies)

trust me when i say no words cld describe.
NO WORDS!

really appreciative of all that!
dear lord, im greedy. i want more!! =))
alright alright, i shld be self-contented! boo!

i pray day n night
that things will be smooth for all of us, esp HER.

when i say i really wish...
i mean REALLY wish to stay on as long as i can.

when i say i love...
i mean REALLY love everything that was given to me by this job.
(though i sometimes hate the job itself! hahaha but thinking of what it given me, i hate it lesser day by day.)

Thank Lord for EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THINGS! =))

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:11 PM. 0 comments

*Tuesday, March 03, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

drained

FUCKING DRAIN AND EXHAUSTED!!!
DAMN!

this cannot goes on. i'll just give up totally, which i cant and i wont.

i need to get more sleep...

and its really....

DAMN MENTALLY TAXING!

stop giving me that SIAN face, it will affect me somehow! boo!

STAY FOCUS! for goodness sake!

and perhaps..
its been long that i have "ME" time.
i need some peace.

Lord, if i cant have peace outside, please bring me inner peace.
i need that badly. =(

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 9:37 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, February 28, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

doesnt pay to be nice

it doesnt always pay to be nice.

feel kinda like a fool sometimes when u tried your very best to help yet that help is not really that necessary.
is it really stupid to be nice and helpful to ppl? esp in working society, i think self-survival is more impt than being helpful.

im more anxious than she is
im more stress than she is (appear with that not-that-impt-look)
im more worried than she is

i wonder, whatever im feeling at that moment, is it really worth it?
i feel cheated and played with, with that emotions turmoil that im going through.

i'll just let it slide this time.
if it were to happen again, i'll think not twice but thrice.

although im hopeful most of the time, part of me is still skeptical. period.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:56 PM. 0 comments

*Monday, February 23, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

life

some times life just make u feel so helpless so speechless...

alot of things are beyond our control...

there's alot you wish and hope you are able to do...

alot
alot

all i can is pray that things will be easier and better for you.
for that's something i can do...

Labels: momentous, ramblings, work

by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 11:06 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, February 21, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

Up To U

Labels: ramblings

by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:29 PM. 0 comments