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*Sunday, February 08, 2009

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sigh

where is our quality time?
will i ever have a chance for it?

=/

i hate myself every now and then.

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*Thursday, December 04, 2008

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happy

hahaha took train with BIRD candy. hahahaha
and yes, happy like BIRD. lols
chat abit.
he's not that bad lar. keke.

having his presence make my day. rofl!

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*Friday, October 17, 2008

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remembrance

17/10/2003-17/10-2008
- 五年了。
说忘就忘,毕竟怎样都是不可能的。
每一份回忆,每一夕时光,抹也抹不掉。
只好埋在心里就深处!
偶尔还是会想想过去,想想你!
(你最近还好吗?)


17/10/2008
- first Bank job test.
- first local eye candy after so long (who was my lasT?? i think its been a long time)
- first stressful day after so long. (brains haven been needed as of late till today)

=)) but im happy to have an eye candy. hehe!

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*Friday, October 10, 2008

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hilarious

he called
i hellos
he hellos
i hellos hellos yes yes
he hang up my phone

he smsed over
i just called you but a guy pick up the phone, who is that?

im dumbfounded

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
WTF! does my voice sounded so like a guy? maybe a little different from normal girls but not that manly right? i dont have that "teh" voice. i have got a firm voice! :P

my heart almost fall out of my mouth. hahaha!!
//the very first time, it isnt a missed call BUT a PHONE call. =))

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*Tuesday, October 07, 2008

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irritating

your appearance always make me feel asdfghjkl and lkjhgfdsa.
or should i say, whenever you arent feeling good.

why, why..
why is my mood always affected by yours?
and the way you arent talking much doesnt help!
somehow or rather it just makes me feel even helpless.

by right you arent my who-so-ever, so whatever you feeling or felt shouldnt at the least bothers me but it doesnt appear so.

ever since then, i haven been much of myself.
damn it!
not like you bothers anyway.
perhaps the connection we once had, dissipated.


i feel so much like going to the beach and feel the breeze.
i miss that feeling so much..........

am i even in your mind? shrugs

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*Sunday, September 14, 2008

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random.

im skeptical of this LD friendship.
i've no idea when it will end.
but i treasure every sms sent.
keep it this way.
i love this kind of connection more each day.
=))

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*Thursday, August 21, 2008

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if i get killed, you know why?

teddi: u like handsome boys?
teddi: hahaha
teddi: i see
teddi: now i understand.
teddi: =D
1202: what?
teddi: u like handsome boy
1202: :@
teddi: =X i wont tell people
1202: y be careful
teddi: why?
1202: no reason
1202: be careful
1202: haha
teddi: :P
1202: i going to the airport now
1202: to buy plane ticket
teddi: OMG
teddi: haha
1202: do y know what for?
teddi: dunno
1202: fly to singapore
1202: give y a lesson
1202: haha
1202: be careful
1202: i have to go
1202: see y
1202: bye
teddi: bye


classic! hahaha its so funny to me! xD
he's just so cute isnt he.. =))

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*Sunday, August 17, 2008

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happy like bird!

hahahahahahaha!

the sms to T got through like finally.
shld have approach pandar earlier lahs, stupid!

hahahahahahaha!

happy like bird the entire night.
smiling like an idiot! ROFL!

hahahahahahaha!

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*Friday, May 23, 2008

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random-ness

1) no idea where the hell u died to, having u back here is like equals to u being back there. the conversations and quality time spend is worse then before. we dont talk anymore, no more quality chats, no more heart-to-heart chattings.. everything's gone.

nevermind, it's ok anyway.. i dont feel much, just a tinge of ... miss. miss the times back then.
:) move on.

2) dont understand why is it that your mood affects mine.. my mood dont often get affected by Friends.. and if so.. it usually up to some special feelings.. but.. who cares? ha! so.. just leave it. emoemo. lols. i've mixed feelings... abt u...

3) so in love with Phoenix Wright.. that spiky hair guy.. lols.. the game so fun. but damn it.. im stuck at epi 5. grrr..

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*Saturday, March 15, 2008

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so how now?

so.. wad am i suppose to feel now? suppose to think now?


hmm.. perhaps i shld stop dreaming.

wad 5yrs story all bullshit! yes, bullshit! it's just plain fairytales that will nv happen.


afterall, i dont even know wad u're feeling. HA!

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*Friday, January 04, 2008

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whee =))

helping out in bookshop is damn slack. haha. Boss is nice. lolx though can be sarcasticly fun at times. =p

JY, MH. whee=))
oh suddenly they so close. shocked. haha. they went lunch tgt quite often.
went over to disturb den Stall 1 auntie disturb me by telling JY that she's my 偶像 =/ damn paiseh can.
guess what i responded?? 有meh? 呕吐的对象har?-_- yaya damn stupid me. i felt really bad after that because she WILL NEVER be that to me!
boo. still fun la, they keep disturbing me even MH joined in the fun -_-". hee. but still i feel very happy because got them. =D

mdm Teo had to buy beancurd for Mr Lourd because there will be Maths Dept meeting den i tagged along with mdm Teo to help carry. thought of JY specially bought 1 for her, my treat of course. aiya cheap cheap nia. =p also to repay for what i'd said earlier.
mT: xiao xiong 请你的。
JY: o.o??
mT: 你是她的偶像
JY: 不要这样说啦。。 (must be that paiseh face for what i know of. hehe)
as for me, after i listen of coz smiling like an idiot lah! HEEHEE!!!

the best teacher i know of sia!!!! =p



last day of helping out in bookshop.

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*Thursday, January 03, 2008

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ES. loves.

it feels really good going back to ES without having the fear of seeing certain ppl that you dont feel like it.

helped out in the bookshop, one word, shiok! i've got a weird lady "boss". she doesnt like to talk much, exactly the opp of me! so.. when im noisy, she "chased" me out of the room and ask me go out talk to other canteen auntie! muhahaha. so.. when it's not the "peak" hour for the bookshop, im practically walking around chatting! hahaha. good right! i can even go up to sci lab to find miss tan. keke.

seeing JY and MH brought me some joy and the acknowlegdement of my presence from other teachers that i had known makes me smile from the bottom of my heart. =D it really feels sooooo good! =))
-oh, there's a change in the no.2. it's an indian lady. looks stern. heard she's quite strict. hohoho. and now got changes in the canteen rules. ya for the canteen workers. after recess for both sessions, they must clean their own respective tables and floors section. -___-"
-pray hard that the no.2 is good to the teachers^^. boo.
-heard no.1 dont intend to hire any HOD. o.o"? so no Sci n Hist HOD.
-i saw a teacher that looks like a student and with bright coloured hairs. o.O copper red? hmm..
-oh oh oh. Salena Saleh is back on action. haha. sexy woman no more revealing clothes? lol
-i will be glad for her if she promotes to be HOD, if she really wants it badly =) hope she still loves the student the same.
-hope her nickname dont be so sound and that she is fair to everyone. but if she likes it that way.. den so be it=)
-hope her teachers dont give her so many problems and she is happy.^^

i like ES despite the fact that alot of teachers had left but a minor few of them is enough to make me feel the warm.

JY: you and MH so friend ah?
me: we had always been so friend ah!

shit thing to me is i didnt bother about JY much that time. damn me. den i even went to help MH take her food to her table there. -__- i think something wrong with me! ROARS! i shld be nicer to JY and helping her instead. guess my screw dropped. basket!

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*Thursday, November 29, 2007

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the first n the last, reunion=)

刚从聚会回来。。这次的聚会和以往不同,也可算是告别某人聚会!到了同样的地点但以不同的角色,不同的角度所体会的也迥然不同。仿佛看到当年的我们,那么的天真,活泼,连当年的喜怒哀乐也一再感触。识别多年,没想到我对那个熟悉又陌生的地方还有一点眷恋。我在那儿经过的点点滴滴,所有的感触,谁会比我还清楚!那可能说忘就忘!

某人的离去如果是当年的我,或是我会大哭一场,发一整天的疯。哈哈,但今时不通往日,不再是当年的糊涂虫。不过,始终还是会有的惋惜毕竟他个好_____ (他扮演过很多角色,所以呢,自我填补空格吧!)他的功劳,他的付出,都是我们旁观者不能随意抹杀的!

不论你曾经对我多不爽,如何从心里地贬低我,歧视我的外表,身形,
我在此还是衷心的祝福你,前程似锦,一帆风顺


from the bottom of my heart,
i wish u all the best and have all the luck you ever need.
take care n good luck=)

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*Friday, October 12, 2007

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presents^^

all these come in pairs and i give a part of them to someone special, each at a different timing. oldest was the one is blue and the last is the extreme left tatty bear keyring in blue also.

presents from the someone special! =)) love it to bits. cherish!

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:15 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, September 15, 2007

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emo.

was friendster-ing and i clicked onto your profile, viewing through those photos and seeing the status got me all disturbed which i thought i wont.

the feelings are so hard to describe. i wondered why wouldnt you just give me a chance? dont i even worth a single chance? sigh. am i that bad? i bet you know how i feel towards you but all i get was just plain ignoring.


ya.. so now i know i havent really gotten over you as i thought i had. bloody ass me! why am i still a thing after so long... even just seeing a photo! damn!


i wish everything it's
as we were when we met.

=(
feeling uber sad.


you never know what im feeling.. sigh..







but seriously, i yearn for ur presence..
come back into my life, will you? ='(

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*Friday, August 31, 2007

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rattles

no idea will i be consider silly doing these, hope not
and hope im not wasting my money unnecessarily.




life's so peaceful now.



i want a new job that im comfortable with soon! =@
so that i have $$ to buy my digi cam!!
and more $$ to save up. boo!

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*Friday, August 03, 2007

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a conversation

i recalled i felt a tinge of happiness when i had a conversation with ade.
i sense an ease of comfort though that one pathetic 1hr call costed me 20bucks.

it lasted for quite awhile.
sigh happiness are always shortlived. why? =(

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*Friday, July 27, 2007

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specially for u

i dont know why but every time i see or hear something related about you, it never failed to make me think back of whatever that had happened then.

somehow i missed the times i spent my entire day waiting for u to come MSN to talk to me..
the way i sacrificed my sleep just to chat with you becoz of the time difference..
and how i try being so funny to you to make u smile..
i missed all our conversations.. and the ways we tried to crack each other up..

i miss asking what u had for breakfast/lunch/dinner
i miss asking hows your days in school
i miss suggesting you what to eat when u have no idea abt it
i miss cursing and swearing at you (with another kind of tone)

i really think there's a mutual understanding between us and most impt we enjoyed each others' company. those days i bet were the most memorable days ever. even though we were far apart, i really felt your presence with me everywhere i go. the so near yet so far theory.

i have no idea whether if it's true that im suppose to remember you.
times and again i did really put u aside and not thought abt you for long however every one-fine-day there will be something that reminds me of you appeared right infront of me.
Be it a song, a picture or whatever.

--> Hao Xin Hao Bao <-- this canto song.. is rather and oldies.. and what i get was it's being played in a department store that's selling TVs, Hi-Fis etc..
i almost fainted. -_-

on and off i'll visit cyn's blog to see if she happens to update stuffs that she did with u. afterall thats the only place i can get news about u.

i dont know if u will be reading this.. honestly, im glad u're doing fine. hope u didnt grew fatter =x hehe. that day (cant rmb when) i heard from news that some disaster happen in CA, i was kinda worried if it's happen near your area but ya i wont have ways to know.. alright, quite worried abt u too.

i cant explain the feeling i get when i see ur tags.
to feel happy, or to be feeling upset.
perhaps im trying to be non-chalant. =/

today was browsing through your blog archives and doing so make me so dont feel like doing my work. ugh. i left kind many of stuffs not done. will have to slog my guts out next week.
i think it's been too long since we chatted or you werent like this in the past. i read entries during 2004,2005.. it sounded not the you i knew. haha. it just felt weird.. hmm or have we distant? no idea!

sometimes i was thinking
do i still matters to you?
why didnt u contact me?
why wont u drop me a mail or something?

or maybe things have changed for u. haha
u dont feel for me anymore. bet so. =p
or maybe u have forgotten abt me. haha.


whatever u want to say..
tell me abt it alright?
im waiting..




all in all..
please dont lose yourself along the way.
read through ur past entries.. find urself back..
dont be afraid of future. there sure be ppl walking with u.
and always rmb u're not alone!

being optimistic can overcome alot of obstacles.
trust me. =)

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*Thursday, July 26, 2007

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grr

so damn freaking angry!

the comp that the previous staff is using(which im using now) is practically useless. the access is super ultra limited. fuck it!

since she's not OT-ing i ask to use her comp for my work and knows what! she dont want let me use.. WTF! the comp im using now the internet shut off at SEVEN!!! nehneh one. feeling so uncomfortable now coz i know after 7 i wont have MSN to use already.. pui!


GRRRR!!! feeling so bu shuang!!! ROARS!!!
slam the comp sia. lousy poke. hurrr....

selfish person! hmph.



hate it when its mth end. freaking lots of stupid dumb stuffs to do.
printing of 500 OVER invoices (done)
sorting them respectively according to their types!! (not done)


think still got more to come. alot of updating, printing, checking!!!
faints i think i gonna die! hurr.




haha oh i had internet all the way till im gone from office. xD
loving it. =))









im one-sided loving him.
i want a movie with him!! =(
muhahaha. =D

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*Wednesday, July 25, 2007

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so funny.

i dreamt of him.
think it's two days ago.. its so funny can!

sorry no details. only i can know. hehe.

or perhaps in wordpress.com =x

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