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*Monday, May 24, 2010

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

me

things happen for a reason
people are there for a lesson.

from her i see my good
from him i see my faults.

here is my learning ground.
but after all the lessons

it will be time
to move on.


i want my property license
i want my insurance license
i want my big big money
- at my own pace -


but before i get all those
i got to learn all the techniques
the techniques to survive and prosper.

i will have a life, i call the shots
i will have a life, i have the control
i will have a life, the way i want it.


first thing first,
hello, where my driving license and my car?

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 1:03 AM. 0 comments

*Saturday, October 03, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

Being One and Acting Like One IS totally different.

acting stupid doesnt mean i am
acting silly doesnt mean i am

what i seems to be
doesnt justify what i am.

dont say doesnt mean i dont know
dont react doesnt mean i dont feel

now a days no people play it hard.
people use mind games, tactical words and strategic moves.
im weak on words therefore my game plan is to have psychology games and strategic moves.
im more into psychology games.

if everything is used wisely and accurately,
you will be able to manipulate a person at your own will.
you can make the whole world trust you yet you know you dont trust them at all.
they can be those that, when they are of no usage anymore, they can be discard as and when they like.

for me, it never gets tiring at all.
i like the challenge of getting a person who is hard to get along with
to actually get along with me and feel comfortable totally.
i want to make everyone (that i dislike) to actually feel comfortable with me and place their trust on me.
i want to assure myself that i have the ability to make people feel comfortable to the degree i want it to.
the harder the challenge is, the more satisfaction i have.
it might sound psychotic to some.

i enjoy appearing dumb, silly, crazy, nonsense, immature, playful, cant be bother etc etc..
people have less guard on people like this.
people round them up as, childish, still young, not serious etc etc
people have less responsibilities for me also.
im someone who doesnt like responsibilities since young.
i'll shun away as much as i can.
i dont like the trouble, dont like the problems and even dont like the stress.
but that doesnt mean i cant handle.
sometimes circumstances forced out the other potentials of you.
but the bottomline will still be :-
i will only unveil my real self when i needed to.
otherwise, i'll still be silly, nonsense, carefree, playful me.

actually there's alot of hidden power within me that i've yet to discover.

i realised i always do things not at my maximum power.
i am a fast learner but i always appear to be rather slow.
perhaps due to laziness.
my guitar learnt half way and im getting lazy. =/

i am an efficient and effective worker if i want to.
the degree of output at work already tell me that i am not fully utilising myself.
if i am more focus
if i am more concentrated
if i am more driven
if i am more energized
1300~ will not just be my max commission that i will be getting.
perhaps that's only my 30-40%.
sigh but i get lazy every now and then.
this job is getting a little boring at times.
my focus span is short or im too lazy to focus for too long.
i get distracted very easily but when im focus, i really am, extremely.
it just a matter of getting the momentum but it breaks so often here. gosh.

i used to be a sharp-edged person.
straightforward, blunt, immediate etc...
now i've become a rounder..
dont have the idea whether is it good or bad
but i felt i have changed alot.
apart from heart matters,
i no longer that type of impulsive, daring, decisive person to a point that my teacher ever said :" she reacts to whatever said or does to her "
wonder is this a lope side or...?
im no longer so chatty that was being called a chatterbox.
i have quiet down alot.
till some point of time that i thought i am being a mute. -_-"

used to be a happy-go-lucky person
how about now?
i have no idea.

even the china chinese teacher who taught me for a short while
commented that i have quiet down.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 12:21 AM. 0 comments

*Wednesday, September 30, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

simplicity reflections

it's the time again that make me compare between time and happiness.

there are people:
who are feeling happy earning big bucks
who are feeling unhappy earning big bucks
who are feeling happy earning a meagre income
who are feeling unhappy earning a meagre income
who are feeling happy earning lilttle (just enough to survive)
who are feeling unhappy earning little (just enough to survive)

sometimes it depends if you have the life to enjoy certain degree of prosperity in your life.
or even, is your life meant to have certain prosperity level.

e.g will be like a person who keep wanting to earn enough to substain a luxury life. they worked damn hard etc to gain that amount of money but yet along the way, some things happen, they never have to life for it anymore.

i wish to keep myself level-headed.
i have dreams, goals even though is not big one.
i want my happiness to be a journey, not a destination.
i wish to feel what i want to feel
i wish to enjoy what i want to enjoy
i wish to love the way i want it to
i wish to have things happen the way i want it to. (it's all simple little things)

im a easily contented person.
i dont ask for much or even more.
i hope of a job that earns meagre income for savings and spending.
i hope for friends whom i care and love to go through my life with me.
i hope to feel happy through my journey of life.

is there actually a work place whereby makes you feel like home?
my ideas might be old-fashioned but i love work environment that makes one feel home.
everyone is helping each other out,
no individual internal challenges for survival,
no gossipings, no backstabbing, no underhands,
where you sweat and bleed together.
we eat together what we can afford at that moment.
this is my ideal working place.
but i guess, the only word that i will receive will be "dream!"

being in this current work place makes me realised i am never cut-out for sales.
i abhor the stress i am getting.
i abhor the fighting for survive game.
i hate having to speak for the sake of it.
i hate to follow rules and regulations.
the above reasons would be more than enough for me to step into sales job if i ever were to leave here which i forsee happening soon in time to come.

my initial thoughts was just to stay on and help out as it's patricia who pull me in.
at first i thought, there's a friend in there working so it wont be so out of place and lonely.
god knows why, soon after i came, she got to leave.
one by one leaving and all i can think of it just to stay on and "help" out.
afterall there's nothing to lose and they were short-handed and also thinking cant just leave like that.
seems to have no loyalty (anywhere i goes, loyalty will be one of the traits i see myself to) to abandon the group just like that.
another main reason is not wanting to see someone so stress and feeling helpless over such situation. a person more is better than a person less. (since then already thinking in the sense that i can be there for that person at least. cannot leave the person in lurch.)

slowly time passed, new people comes and go.
everything had become a routine.
it just goes round and round..

there is a batch that i like alot.
where everyone is like brothers and sisters.
during that period of time, the "survivor" game is the harmless.
no, i dont even call it survivor game, more of a "brotherhood" game.
too bad, good times dont last.
that was also one of the better months.

next was my motivator.
it was never never easy.
i get distracted most of the times.
i emo more than often.
i see myself looking kind of lost.
it is getting harder and harder to be optimistic.
yes, work is still work.
body is moving, hands are typing, work as per normal.
what seems wrong is the inner self.
the initial concept already started is a different way.
so it ended up with "what's the point now"

things are stagnant now.
in fact i used to be yearning to come to work.
i feel happy everyday regardless of what happen.
even the sky drop i can treat as nothing happen.
that's when you have a friend with you at work,
things are definately not the same.

things are definately not the same now too.
it just that all the things i used to feel goes on a reverse side.
sometimes it feel like the world had toppled upside down.
some might say i am too extreme but different people had different perspective and different way of feeling things.
and this is the way i feel. accept it or not.
what matters to me, REALLY extremely matters.
what doesnt, REALLY extremely doesnt.
i am a See-Saw which you will see it only falling on one side.

time will heal?
time will only numb the feelings you gone through
time will only leave scar after hurts
time will only provide you the end results
but never heal.

it gets a little annoying to be speaking people's language most of the times.
it gets a little depressing when there's no one to really talk to in office.
it gets a little taxing to force yourself for focus and concentration.
it gets a little frustrating to see yourself living through motion.
it gets a full lots of shit to feel upside down.

can someone slap me upside down and wake me up?
i dont wish to trap in this bloody emotions roller-coaster.
it is quite hard for me to snap out of it once im stuck.
i am losing control of how to handle myself.

sigh forget it.
thinking im purely emo-ing.
drained.
fuck it man.

can my feelings go abit more simplified?

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 12:20 AM. 0 comments

*Friday, September 25, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

reflections

sometimes i feel that im always battling within myself.
the angel and devil in me are always fighting against one another.

i prefer to be obligated by rules and regulations
yet at times i want to break the max out of them.

i am very conservative and traditional person
yet the way i speak and behave doesnt justify.

im so weak inside most of the times
yet i appeared to be rather strong.

i am a very sad and depressive person
yet people who mixed around with me dont think so.

i yearn to be loved
yet i shown to be not needing at all.

i am lonely inside
yet others see me as full of friends.

all in all,
im so not what i appear to be.


alvin told me before,
i need to learn to love myself before i could love others
but i realise
i only love myself after i love others.

at times i dont understand why people like to catagorise the different type of likes
when one says " i like (fill in the blanks)."

must all the liking for a person to be catagorise so specifically
before one can claim that he/she likes he/she?
really wonders big time.

to me, liking a person is as simple as ABC.
pure likings, no differentiation, no catagorising, no nothing. just LIKE!
to like a person is...
to make the person feels happy
to provide company, comfort
to double your joys
to bring happiness
whatever effort one puts in
the main reason is to see the one u like smile.
even to the extent i could be hurt till heart bleed like nobody business,
as long as i still be able to provide simple bliss, even a tinge of it
i'll still be hanging around and stay contented.

but there are also times i dont understand
why people who just give their whole heart out (unconditionally)
yet get hurt every now and then.
dont they deserve for the other party to just be a little bit nicer?
or is it the other party had take them for granted that
they dont really bother if they feel hurt?

no expectations = no disappointment
but when you put your whole heart in, definitely you will expect something.
for me, my 100% out, i only expect a maximum of 50% in.
that's the maximum i'll expect from a person, as more than usual, i only got 10-30% input.
sigh..

that's also the reason why,
i always wonder, why am i being nice to people for?
to let people to take advantage of?
im usually very generous to my friends.. my loved friends.
quite generous with better friends outside my comfort zone.
yet times and again i met black sheep that break the faith i've been trying to build for people outside my comfort zone

i think humans are getting disappointing, more and more disappointing.
the reason why i hate going to adult world because i've to be consistently beware of 'unaccountable' kind of different people.
i hate to be on my guard
i hate to second thoughts people's words
i hate to be wearing a mask everyday
i hate to entertain for the sake of it
i hate to be taken advantage of
i hate to have more responsibilities
i hate to be treated like a fool/clown
most of all, i hate having to trust and distrust restrictedly.
i have the tendency to trust people easily
how i wish i can be non-chalant to all things.

i dont know if it's my pms that's acting up
but im feeling very depress everyday.
nothing could really cheers me up.
even looking at silly and roro's pic isnt helping.
i think the depressive situation is worse than ever.

suddenly i feel....
so empty...

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 11:53 PM. 0 comments

*Friday, August 14, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

pain is inevitable

this is probably one of the better times to reflect.

"when feelings are involved, pain is inevitable"

been through a couple of jobs whilst my 5yrs long down period.
i've made a plenty of acquaintances, never a friend.
during that period of times, my new found friends are all from the internet. just a handful of them.
they are friends i will keep and i will still contact them once a while for meet-ups.
definitely of the similar frequency and share my thoughts.

until 17/10/2008. i put a stop to my closure.
i decided for a final break through after closing up for so long.
among all acquaintances, my heart pointed to A. he is a friend for keep, for sure.
then R appeared. afterwhich more and more random people started appearing in my life.
a few of nonsenses ppl
a few of trouble makers
a few of demanding ppl
a few of seemingly close ppl
a few of childish ppl
and of coz
a few of nice and treasurable ppl.

my heart pointer had never fail to help me pick my friends.
it know who to be nice to and who to have feelings for.
it usually will feel for those appreciative people and automatically i'll be nice to them.
sometimes i really feel that my heart can see thru a person than my eyes.
it usually brings me to what i like and bring me my joys.

actually all thanks to P, that she brought me in here.
of all places i had been, i've nv met people that i wish to keep so badly.
this is the first place of all.
im not a greedy person and im a very selective person.
of all the many, ppl i will keep max is 2 from a place or none.
count yourself lucky if u're one of them.

and when it's well-screened and pick, i have feelings for them.
love needs feelings, so does friendship.
when feelings involve, it touches the heart
when heart is involve, detachment is hard.
when detachment is hard, pain is inevitable.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:58 PM. 0 comments

*Friday, August 07, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

quotes

found this on the friendship quotes application
and it caught me thinking.

Don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. All they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves. - Albert Camus

Friendship without self interest is one of the rare and beautiful things in life. - James Francis Byrnes

False friends aren't always that bad because it shows you about yourself and teaches you to be strong and life goes on. - Josh Wojo

I always felt that the great high privilege, relief and comfort of friendship was that one had to explain nothing. - Katherine Mansfield

In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends. - Martin Luther King, Jr

A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down. - Arnold H. Glasow

The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention. A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words. - Rachel Naomi Remen

Friends are like pillars on your porch. Sometimes they hold you up and sometimes they lean on you. - Sharon Foltz

Good friends are like stars... You don't always see them, but you know they are always there. - Unknown Author

My wish upon this shooting star is that your heart be happy. - Gilbert

A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else. - Len Wein

Who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure. - Anonymous

True friendship needs no words... - Dag Hammarskjold

A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have. - Unknown Author

A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your success! - Doug Larson

The finest kind of friendship is between two people who expect a great deal of each other, but never ask it. - Syvia Bremer

Every man should have a fair-sized cemetery in which to bury the faults of his friends. - Henry Brooks Adams

Without wearing any mask we are conscious of, we have a special face for each friend. - Oliver Wendell Holmes

Too late we learn, a man must hold his friend Unjudged, accepted, trusted to the end. - John Boyle O'Reilly

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 9:25 PM. 0 comments

*Sunday, April 12, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

remember this!

when words underlined with one's selfishness
thats when words, are just words.
- when the basic of humanity, Care, is not there.

when logics get the upper hands
thats when actions are to be taken.
- when emotions are to be cast aside.

this is One quick-sand, i tried very hard not to fall into yet the more i resist it, the more deeper i'm sinking in. and now.. i did and fall deeply.
perhaps it's time to withdraw myself out of it
before i got buried and suffocated!

the emotional baggage i had been holding on
the invisible stress i had been withstanding
the seemingly happiness i had been enjoying
had to put to a STOP!

it's time to set in those
boundaries
and
limitations!
.
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.
.
.
.
when u always try means and ways to make ppl happy
u tend to forget abt ur own existence, ur own happiness.

happiness shld not be given by others
it shld be within yourself.

why be happy becoz others are
which probably
when u're happy, others are not.

afterall, B is just B. forever a B never a F to start with.
perhaps...
it's my fault to start with.
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.
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tml will be completely a brand new start.
with or without - contract.

Contracts do get expired.
just like the Sweets.

expired on the 13/4/2009!.




It ENDS today after the clock strike 12!
everything!
snap out of delusion!



but...
i want to know,
am i a FRIEND to you?
or just a worker.
a worker whom u can talk to.

a truthful ans will be good.

perhaps...
all these written here to you are just -
craps, nonsensical, irrational, childish, pointless, unecessary comments, assumptions and arguements.
BUT..
that spells my insecurity, uncertainty, anxiety.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:12 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, March 14, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

no words

no words could describe:

the stress that im withstanding (its more than what i expect myself to handle, though still coping well)
the happiness that im having (working there)
the fun that im getting (with colleagues, boss and even with the food stalls ladies)
the friends that im making (boss, tm, colleagues and even the food stall ladies)

trust me when i say no words cld describe.
NO WORDS!

really appreciative of all that!
dear lord, im greedy. i want more!! =))
alright alright, i shld be self-contented! boo!

i pray day n night
that things will be smooth for all of us, esp HER.

when i say i really wish...
i mean REALLY wish to stay on as long as i can.

when i say i love...
i mean REALLY love everything that was given to me by this job.
(though i sometimes hate the job itself! hahaha but thinking of what it given me, i hate it lesser day by day.)

Thank Lord for EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THINGS! =))

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 8:11 PM. 0 comments

*Saturday, February 07, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

Considerations

Examples of consideration for others are holding back from saying something unpleasant because it will upset another person, or giving up fishing because of the suffering it causes the fish.
We need to practice consideration whenever we are with other people by being mindful of how our behavior might disturb or harm them.

Our desires are endless, and some of them would cause other people great distress if we acted on them.
Therefore, before we act on a wish, we should consider whether it will disturb or harm others, and if we think that it will, we should not do it.
If we are concerned for the welfare of others, we will naturally show them consideration .

Consideration for others is important for everyone.
If we are considerate, others will like and respect us, and our relatoinships with our family and friends will be harmonious and long lasting.
Without consideration for others, however, relationships quickly deteriorate.
Consideration prevents others from losing faith in us and is the basis for developing a mind of rejoicing.

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 9:18 PM. 0 comments

*Friday, February 06, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

importance

first impression really nt important.
what matters is deep down how the person is.
u always get things u least expected.

i appreciate what comes along.
really appreciate and grateful that i met these people and thankful that those things happen.
it just add on experience in my growth and more understanding and insight.

im only give myself time to be down only when i know i can depend on ppl ard me to give support.
if ppl ard me are down, no matter what, i wont let myself be down instead i'll put away my own problems away and try my very best to lift their spirits up.

i realise the importance of having someone to be there for that certain moments.
im grateful for those who had been there and done that and i'll try my utmost best to be there and done this.

i understand the need to have someone to talk to
i understand the importance of having someone to be there
i hope to have that myself so im trying to be that myself too.

i just want ppl ard me to be happy especially with my presence. =)



i hope u're holding on strong.
time is all that everyone needs.
dont worry, u're not alone and u can have my hands to hold, shoulder to cry, body to lean on.

every endings come new beginning =)

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 10:37 PM. 0 comments

*Tuesday, January 27, 2009

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

MJ, SING! =D

kena scolded like shit by my mother just coz
i went ahead to play MJ at wl's hse despite her disagreement.
MJ-ed from 5 till 10+ LOL! if no work sure can marathon!

got nagged by my father just coz
i went partyworld with A,WL,JW till 3am in the morning and he's still awake waiting for me to reach home.
its fun fun fun!!! not bad not bad, it's oldies time. sing until almost no breathe but it's enjoyment!
Hey, guys, i want more K-ing session, can can?? =D

HAHA!
im so so so gotta start a family meeting regarding my own rights.
im 21, not 12. i need my BREATHING SPACE!!!
the more im controlled, the more rebellious i am. it's true and a fact. i know myself.
free me and then i will know what is home.

i really cant stand everyday after work just go home and rot and slp.
it will be ok if ive nth to do or im really tired that day or wadsoever.
but i still need my socialising time!! boohoo!!!
slp is important i know but i need my play time as well.
cant be asking to waste my time sleeping my life away when life is so short!
i can slp all my might when i drop dead in the coffin man. tsk!!

i was thinking if im to lead a normal life as what he expect, who is there to play with me??
friends my age are either working or studying in the Morning till NOON!
only time to enjoy, relax and chill is evening till late night.
so tell me.. go home SLEEP n watch tv or to go out and meet friends and Catch up??
TV can watch anytime, Sleep can sleep anytime (whenever u have nth to do).

Friendship need quality time to maintain.Not quantity.
each have their own life, you think want to meet then can meet?
so of coz meet whenever possible lar!!
how can control me till such when im a 重情义 person!!

i dont know how long whichever friendship i tried to build will last
but i treasure every moment spent together especially those with lots of fun n laughters, especially.
im not into quantity friends(some ppl do just enjoy having LOTS of friends), im into quality ones.
i dont like sweet talkers around me, i love serious advisors.

my father always say friends dont last, friends cant be trust..
but when u first dont trust, dont believe it will last, dont put in effort..
WHICH friendship will ever last???? tell me?
i dont mind taking the first step even in the end i might be at the losing end.
i know what i want. im all out to believe whichever things i believe in will make me happy.
i trust my heart because it hardly disappoint me. =)

i go the extra mile, put in extra effort because i found some quality friends through my workplace.
i think they are worth for keeps but how it might last, nobody knows. who knows the future?
i know i enjoy their company even though somtimes im the WEIRDEST person there being such a QUIET ass.
i do believe the best company doesnt really need to be talking all the times. some times just being there and be part of it, it's also one of the life's pleasure.
i always believe whoever u meet in life, there's a reason for them to be there.
so far it's been an eye-opener for me to know more things, gain more insight.
more importantly, i saw/hear/learn things i never know last time.
last, i still can continue my belief that i once almost gave up in, that SOME guys are still good. =)

im skeptical, im sensitive, im doubtful, im insecure
but above all, im extremely hopeful.

朋友不需要多
好朋友几个就好

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by teddi^.^ sealed off @ 11:17 PM. 0 comments

*Sunday, December 28, 2008

-+SeLecTiVe BeHaViOuR

faith in human renewed.

sometimes u just need those good old friends to be there to actually make u realise there's still this word called "FRIENDS".

the bond between one and another is so hard to build in times like this. especially out of the innocent secondary sch days, when all people come from different aspect of life and they had been through different things and having different idealogy as you.

though there are times i dont understand why sec sch friends remains much more closer to heart than people you met at different junctions.
lets say sec sch u've got 4years to be together but how about poly u've got 3years, Uni u've got 3-4years and worse, working for a couple of Years but ultimately u still end up with your sec sch friends being the closest. i dont void out the possibility that you cld actually find close friends in the later two i mentioned but u'll still find that those u manage to keep in contact till now during sec sch days will be much closer and comfortable.

what i meant close is those u can be yourself, no restriction, no boundaries just pure simple of fun and more fun.....

not that i want to make comparison among different aspect of people but it isnt good to keep yourself in denial that all people are the same, all people are kind and nice, all people ARE friends. times and again you need time for yourself to reorganise your thoughts, your life, your judgements or maybe even your friends to see what you had been through, what u have gotten as of now, what you had give and shared and most impt what your life had been going on!

is it so hard to reach out to new people?
for all i know as of now, it's so exhausting and mind straining to meet and understand new people. u tend to be more protective of yourself than ever and along the way u start closing yourself up in order to keep urself sane. the more new ones u meet, the more kind of "faces" you got to put up and pretend which in terms u lose yourself in the long run.

speak their words? crap.
i dont really enjoy the process of losing myself and having to wear a mask to everyone i see and speak their bullshit. i need serenity in myself. i dont enjoy people to mess up my beliefs or to even change my beliefs. i am who i am. im trying hard to keep myself as compose as ever. im so gotta learn to be myself again. myself and the new self combine shld be a greater me. =)

although im trying to start loving everyone again but do grant me some stress-free new good friends, i'll be glad and appreciate that. spare me from those buzzers. i dont need such ppl to come mess up my life. quality is more worth that quantity =))

good o'times are rare so its best to treasure everytime u get to enjoy it.
each have their own individual life but the effort to meet up is much appreciated.
i know i've my good o'friends, my buddies.
i shld be feeling happy, contented, fortunate, blessed.
thank you for being there from then till now. our friendship road is still a "comma" and it will continue to be so. =)

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*Sunday, December 14, 2008

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A million stars


Sometime, words can't say how i feel right now.

Looking up at the starry sky,
i wonder what goes beyond there.

Which angel was there watching you
when you laugh with joy?
Which angel was there holding you
when you fall or cry?

And what tune will you listen to as
you recall everything good or bad?

Tonight, I will be listening.
To my ears, my music and to my heart.






[self edited] kopped from Ice blog. original version go Ice's blog.

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*Wednesday, December 10, 2008

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Chinese Astrology

Chinese Zodiac Pig

Contrary to its rather negative reputation in the West, the Pig of Chinese Astrology may be the most generous and honorable Sign of the Zodiac. Pigs are nice to a fault and possess impeccable manners and taste. They have so much of the perfectionist in them that others may be inclined to perceive them as snobs, but this is a misconception. Pigs are simply possessed of a truly luxurious nature, one that delights in finery and riches (in surroundings, food, lovemaking and otherwise). This Sign believes in the best qualities of mankind and certainly doesn't consider itself to be superior. Pigs also care a great deal about friends and family and work hard to keep everyone in their life happy. Helping others is a true pleasure for the Pig, who feels best when everyone else is smiling.

A Pig with no one around to appreciate its giving nature is a sad sight. Pigs are so magnanimous they can appear almost saintly; this can lead some less-than-well-intentioned souls to stomp all over this Sign, and the bad news is, the Pig will take the blows! Pigs make great companions in part because of their refusal to see the more negative or base qualities in a partner, but that rose-colored view can lead to this Sign's allowing itself to be taken advantage of. Contrary to their seemingly benign dispositions, however, Pigs can be quite venomous in response to being crossed by a lover, friend or business partner.

Pigs are highly intelligent creatures, forever studying, playing and probing in their quest for greater knowledge. They can be misinterpreted as being lazy, however, due to their love of reveling in the good stuff; this Sign could happily spend hours on end making love, napping, taking a long bubble bath or dallying over an incredible spread of rich foods. Pigs tend to make wonderful life partners due to their hearts of gold and their love of family. Even so, Pigs can be rather exclusive, choosing to spend time with those who will appreciate them most and ignore the rest of the populace. Pigs would do well to realize that there's more to life than being needed. When they open up their world to a diverse group of people, they will truly bloom.


Chinese Zodiac Rabbit

Timid and attractive, the Rabbits of the Chinese Zodiac tend to act more like bunnies, whether they like it or not! This Sign is extremely popular and has a wide circle of family and friends. Its compassionate nature leads it to be very protective of those it holds dear, but where romance is concerned, the Rabbit's sentimentality can lead it to idealize relationships. The sweet, sensitive Rabbit often ends up giving more of itself to a partner than is realistic or healthy. The good news is, when this Sign goes off-balance, the Rabbit's core group of friends and its stable home life help bring it back to center.

The Rabbit is a rather delicate Sign that needs a solid base in order to thrive. Lacking close, supportive friends and family, the Rabbit might just break down in tears at the first sign of conflict. Emotional upsets in this Sign's life can even lead to physical illnesses. Rabbits dislike arguments and other conflict and will try anything to avoid a fight; this results in something of a pushover nature. Rabbits can also lapse into pessimism and may seem stuck in life -- often to mask their insecure natures. Rabbits tend to move through life's lessons at their own, rather contemplative pace; it's a waste of time to become exasperated with this Sign's seeming disinterest in facing its problems and conquering them.

With the right partner -- meaning someone whose high principles won't allow it to take advantage of this sensitive, giving Sign -- the Rabbit can make an incredibly loving and protective partner or family member. Rabbits love to entertain at home and always make sure their house is comfortable and tastefully-furnished. What Rabbits need most is a stronger sense of self-worth and the security that comes with it. Their discerning natures, coupled with some hard-won assertiveness, will help these happy creatures go far.


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Zodiac

FIRE RABBIT Horoscope
Feb 2, 1927 to Jan 22, 1928
Jan 29, 1987 to Feb 16, 1988

Rabbit people love to play under the moonlight. Quite fanciful, they respond to the power and beauty of nature and are always being pulled one way and the other to examine what they find. They are the luckiest of all twelve signs! But, it's more a result of "the harder I work, the luckier I get" than taking crazy chances. They are cautious, conservative, bright, and have a good head for business. Supremely pleasant to have around, these affectionate, naturally shy peacemakers seldom ever lose their temper. They sometimes appear to be singing the blues because of a natural but short-lived tendency towards despondency. Rabbits always inspire deep admiration and trust.

Ginger Soup and Ginger Noodles are among the keys to good health!!



The Fire Rabbits stand out from the crowd of other Rabbits. You might expect Rabbits to be passive, quiet, and loners. Not so, the Fire Rabbits. These extroverts are leaders of the pack! Fire Rabbits intuitively sense the right way to bring out the best in themselves and other people. They are brave creatures, thirsty for life. Others eagerly follow them because of the promise of adventure and great fun, and they are never disappointed. Visionary explorers, Fire Rabbits inspire others to see beyond the surface. Unlike other Rabbits, Fire Rabbits have the potential to be truly rich. Enormously capable and hardworking, Fire Rabbits can achieve great things others cannot match. Captains in charge of their lives, they experience smooth sailing in their careers. The multifaceted Fire Rabbits experience great versatility in their lives. Their interests can range from Agatha Christie to bungee jumping, from caviar to enchiladas, from snowskiing to Scrabble. Speaking of Scrabble, spell Love: L-O-V-E is very kind to Fire Rabbits. Excellent lovers, they rapturously charm their partners with cozy fireplaces, affectionate hugs, and, most of all, undying support and loyalty.

Famous RABBIT people: Hu Shih, Hu Yao-Bang, Kim Young Sam, Sally Ride, Leonardo Di Caprio, Frank Sinatra, Bob Hope, Arturo Toscanini, Leontyne Price, Clare Boothe Luce, Tiger Woods.


WATER PIG Horoscope
Feb 16, 1923 to Feb 23, 1924
Feb 13, 1983 to Feb 1, 1984

Pig people are friends for life. Their relationships are very deep, devoted, and rich beyond measure. The Pig people are noble and give and receive lots of hugs. They are gallant and extend old-fashioned chivalries towards people they meet. Pig People are quiet, studious, and thorough. On the other hand, they have a quick temper and sometimes have to pay for their rash impulsiveness. However, no one can overcome their inner strength; they have such tremendous fortitude and jump the goal post very time. The Pig will have an abundance of good fortune and an abundance of years. The Pig will know a life filled with serenity and riches.

Soup, Oolong Tea, and Candied Ginger are among keys to good health!!



Some days Water Pigs throw caution to the wind, playing life "by ear" going wherever tumbleweeds go, hither, thither, never resting. Other times, Water Pigs exert every energetic atom of their being into Big Causes, making life beautiful for others with lots of delightful surprises. Career-wise, the older Water Pig has achieved great success because of sheer hard work and sense of responsibility. The younger Water Pig is successful in school, scoring high on achievement tests and holding leadership roles in student government. A bright future awaits them down the road! Because of innate frugality, the older Water Pig is totally secure financially and the younger ones already know how important it is to save their money. Wben it comes to love, the Water Pig carries a Good Luck Charm which never lets them down, whether it's a serious commitment or going steady in high school, they are lucky in love and when the time is right, fall deeply in love. They shouldn't be in a hurry, it's worth waiting for!

Famous Pig People: Chiang Kai-Shek, Lee Kuan Yew, Kim Dae Jung, Syngman Rhee, Tennessee Williams, Julie Andrews, Albert Schweitzer, Jerry John Rawlings, Prince Rainier, Georges Pompidou, Chuck Yeager, Henry Kissinger, King Fahd



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Horoscope

I am Cancer, My Lover is Taurus

Taurus are stable, financially secure, erotic, and loyal, so they represent many of the qualities you admire most in a lover. They share your need for a strong home life, and their even-keeled emotions provide a strong grounding to your stirring inner landscape. Water sign Cancers often feel like they are sailing the high seas emotionally, but a Taurus can bring you to a quiet lake. Both of you share financial savvy. Taurus likes to invest, and you like to find bargains.

In bed, Taurus is a lusty, deeply sensual, and thoroughly considerate lover. Taurus will bring all of his or her senses into play during lovemaking to enhance your mood: touch, taste, smell, hearing and sight. Taurus' sense of touch is particularly highly developed and can be the single most thrilling part about their lovemaking. They are also likely to be blessed with a memorable, sexy voice. Your Taurus sweetheart will adore your deeply soulful approach to love. You both tend to get jealous, so being faithful will be no big deal.

Hang on to this guy or gal. This relationship will provide emotional contentment and financial security, making this a love affair with long term potential.


I am Taurus, My Lover is Cancer

You've found a soul mate. You and Cancer want the same things: family, home, stability, security, and a nice nest egg. Both of you are sensual, and Cancer's innate ESP will sense your every wish before you can even open your mouth. Your lover will baby you so you will get the hint and baby them back -- something Cancers love. How can this relationship fail? It should be cuddly, close and cozy warm during your private time together.

As a Taurus, you probably keep your Cancer lover supplied with herbs from the garden and flowers for the dining table. Your Cancer shows love best by cooking and you are happy to accept such tasty offerings. You both love to eat and whip up amazing dishes together, so you can start your seduction process in the kitchen and later head to the bedroom.

Having enough money means a lot to you both, although Taurus will spend for more luxuries than will Cancer. Cancer will buy a wonderful coat and wear it for a decade. Taurus will buy insurance, stocks and bonds, and then spend the rest on a stereo or a new car. Cancer will buy enough food to supply a small bomb shelter and bank the rest of the money in a conservative, safe, savings account. If your Cancer lover needs something special, he or she will wait for a sale or get it wholesale. You, on the other hand, are enjoy shopping retail in fine boutiques. If Cancers need more money, they'll cut back on expenses. If you need more money, you'll march out and find a better job, an additional job, or a new investment strategy that generates more income. This difference in money style doesn't matter in the end, for the result is the same -- a bigger bank account. Unlike Leos or Capricorns who need money to earn respect, you and Cancer just need it to have a happier life.

In bed, thanks to your earthy erotic style and Cancer's deeply emotional approach to love, you have a passionate, nurturing union of two souls. Taurus like to take their time seducing their sweethearts, which is just fine with a Cancer. Since you only get better with time, Taurus, and hit your sexual peak later in life, you and your lover have a lot to look forward to! Cancer will want little love notes now and then or at least some candles around the bedroom. Can you oblige by being more romantic? Try! When you make love you are both as tender as can be and so genuine in your expression of feelings. What more could either of you ask?

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*Saturday, December 06, 2008

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beliefs

i think its always good to keep your beliefs.
it's just like an aim in life
something to keep u sane
something to keep u going.

when one dont have their beliefs anymore
they give up hope
they lose their confidence
they feel screwed up

i like the things that i believe it
im still gonna keep my beliefs
i know what i believe in
will be true someday.

everything that happens
it's just testing your capability to make it the way u wants it.
if u wants it badly enough,
ur beliefs will come true.

thats why ppl say,
as long as you believe you can, you can.



hmmm everything's been good so far.
nothing to worry abt
nothing to think abt

work politics are stupid. extremely stupid.
cant be bothered with it. as long as i get my job done, thats it.
all those rubbish pls stay away from me. dont come and provoke me.

the company in work is great. except for one auntie.
specially like the presence of some. A&N. haha. =)

-Ai Zai-!

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*Wednesday, November 19, 2008

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hmm

天将降大任于斯人也，
必先苦其心志，
劳其胫骨，
饿其体肤，
空乏其身，
行非乱其所为，
所以动心忍性，
曾益其所不能。

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*Sunday, November 16, 2008

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金牛

金牛


幽默是金牛的天赋
与一般星座书上描写的金牛们相反，其实金牛座非常具有幽默感。他们天生就有搞笑的才能，善于制造轻松的氛围，不要再将牛牛们认为成是一群僵硬腐化的人，相反他们很可爱。还记得在《满城尽带黄金甲》的发布会场上不断耍宝的金牛发哥吗？他的幽默感绝对令资深娱记也大跌眼镜，人缘好不是随便说说的，金牛座有着宽厚的胸怀。


其实他们有着叛逆的灵魂
金牛基本上看起来都是乖孩子，仿佛脚踏实地，固执老实，但是，谁曾想到，其实他们的内心都有着一个小邪魔在作祟？他们虽然是一板一眼的生活，但是在他们的内心里却喜欢着调皮的恶作剧。不要金牛们想象的太沉闷，他们其实内心五彩斑斓，而且特别钟意制造出各种人生的小小乐趣。也正是这样叛逆的灵魂，让有些金牛让人吃惊。所以，一般的容貌姣好的乖乖女，或者一般人理想中的文静男，其实，都不属于金牛的鉴赏范围，他们总会奇异的喜欢些标新立异的人。这点在金牛男上表现的较为突出，也因此而衍生出不少水瓶女和金牛男的佳话吧。


思考是金牛的具象
在贪图享乐的外表下，金牛有一颗哲学家的心。他们看问题的方法与众不同，他们有着唯物主义的思考逻辑，不会轻易人云亦云，也正因为如此，他们让人觉得固执非常。
但是千万不要因为固执就否认金牛们的智慧，有马克思，列宁，康德……为证，金牛们完整的理性思维往往能建立严密体系，只是有时候他们太容易钻牛角尖！不过即使是钻牛角尖的牛牛也具有鲜明的个人特质，李敖就是这类金牛的代表：）


务实的人生不需要浪漫武装
跟牛牛生活是一件比较乏味的事情，如果你钟爱浪漫的仪式。
因为牛牛无论金钱或者生活，他们都踏着务实的步伐。他们不会轻易说我爱你，他们不会随便送花，他们甚至不记得你的生日，更别提情人节等什么形而上的各种纪念日，这让人大为光火。因为没有了形式的爱情，又怎么能证明是爱情呢？
但是，金牛们会告诉你，其实有时候真正的帮助其实好过鲜花香水，有时候挺身而出的担当其实胜过所有的甜言蜜语。所以金牛们的爱情，也许让人闷到感觉不出火花，但是，在贫乏的爱的表象下，却藏着他们深刻的滴水不漏而且日久弥坚的关怀


享乐人生的信仰
金牛们懂得生活。他们虽然很执著，但是该放弃的时候，他们并没有太多犹豫。从利益出发考量的方式，让他们在现实生活中相当的如鱼得水，而懂得平衡自己的贪念，而追求物质的享受和一心的宁静，是金牛座中的极品。这样的金牛能够在逆境中坦然，在顺境中懂得顺应。他们有着预见性的智慧，使人生得到完整的规划。在适当的时候寻求闲适，所以金牛座很少有面临困境无法自拔的困兽，他们相当的懂得自我调节和生活。他们有着自己的节奏。


能够轻松生活的智者
金牛们在星座排行中表现一般，但是其实他们都很出色，金牛座的孩子往往是班干部，金牛座的爸爸妈妈都是模范爸妈，他们在生活中尽职尽责，富有责任感，虽然有时候稍嫌古板，但是正是他们撑起了所谓规矩的框架。


严肃生活认真思考却有能享有生活乐趣的金牛们其实非常可爱，当然，如果他们不那么市侩，那就更好了！

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