have been tied and stressed up by work. (diff ppl have diff degree of stress)
with increasing targets etc.. and damn the stupid commotions in the little work place im in!
it's quite draining and taxing.
i envy H and L that they dont start with demanding targets to work with. i came in for 4mths and the target is like after they work for 1yr plus. it's almost getting the same lvl already.
sometimes i doubt abt myself if i can handle it well.
no doubt my stress tolerance lvl is high because i hardly feel stress/pressurised but i can somehow feel that bit of pressure now.
seeing the newbies come and go, i wonder where's their sense of responsibilites is.
in this line, either u came for the $$ or u want a satisfying job.
if u're not out for this two reasons, why the hell u come and disturb?
why the hell u come and waste each and every one's time and effort to train and guide u?
why even BOTHER to go for that interview??
if u ACCEPT that job, for god's sake, even if you dont like what u're doing,
please just do WHAT u're suppose to do and JUST DO IT.
else, just jolly well find another interview to go and not waste ppl's time.
does any one knows that it's damn fucking tiring and irritating
to actually support the board just by the 3 workers?
and the reason im here is because of my friend's introduce.
does any one actually know that sales line or telemarketing is the LAST job that i ever wanted to be in???
but to me, any job, u just have to do WHAT u're supposed to and given to do! that's work.
i truely understand how the hierachy works in my workplace though i think its quite similar to other Co.
but this work is really a TEAM game.. despite of the position u're in, it boils down as a team, it's all interlink and it affects not one but all of US.
i've nv been working as a team player before. all my temp job are more of individual's contribution like those "if u cant do it, it's ok, i can do it MYSELF!" unlike now, u have to perform as a team. no doubt it's still abt individual contribution but it isnt like if ur numbers cannot hit, u die alone. it's abt if ur numbers cannot hit, u dont die alone, u affect the team as well.
seriously i enjoyed being "needed", who doesnt? i like the fact that im contributing, really contributing. it's quite a satisfying job if u're able to hit targets.
so many temp job i've been in, somehow or rather, this is so far the place i actually:
WISH, HOPE, WANT to stay on to. (as least for a few more months)
and also a place which make my doubt about myself extremely, if im CAPABLE to stay on!
=(
(i really really want to stay till i really cannot stay)
it's not about the $$, honestly speaking, $$ is not impt to me. (maybe for now)
i can anyhow just find a stable job with avg income and stay on to.
i dont mind routine work, it's simple and peaceful to me yet another part of me love challenging stuffs.
it's always easy for me the throw in the resignation especially when my father keep telling me if it's too stress, find another job. go find something more stable and just stick to it.
he always say with the amount of time im spending there i might as well find other job which pay higher. now also not asking u to support the family, i just only want u to go out and see and brush up urself.
have some life training out there.
to me, working is not abt the pay, it's about the human touch there.
if the place and ppl are worth my effort to fight for, i'll jolly well do it.
not that im bragging but i know myself that i can be an effective worker if i want to be.
just that there are times im too lazy and complacent with my little effort.
seriously,
im driven by others.
i smile because of others
i work because of others
i live because of others.
i dont really like doing things for myself.
i find it redundant to do things solely for myself esp when im easily contented.
i just want to contribute to other's goals.
for now
i know i have to stay focus
i know i have to work harder
i know i have to do this and that
and
I WILL
for ur sake. =)
i hope to be one of those that share ur "burden" and be part of ur MAKING IT for this year!
no solid promise but i will definitely do what i can! =)
i've nv feel that much of togetherness at work as much as here.
really.
and im grateful and appreciate what i've been given.Labels: ^roro, momentous, ramblings