sometimes u just need those good old friends to be there to actually make u realise there's still this word called "FRIENDS".
the bond between one and another is so hard to build in times like this. especially out of the innocent secondary sch days, when all people come from different aspect of life and they had been through different things and having different idealogy as you.
though there are times i dont understand why sec sch friends remains much more closer to heart than people you met at different junctions.
lets say sec sch u've got 4years to be together but how about poly u've got 3years, Uni u've got 3-4years and worse, working for a couple of Years but ultimately u still end up with your sec sch friends being the closest. i dont void out the possibility that you cld actually find close friends in the later two i mentioned but u'll still find that those u manage to keep in contact till now during sec sch days will be much closer and comfortable.
what i meant close is those u can be yourself, no restriction, no boundaries just pure simple of fun and more fun.....
not that i want to make comparison among different aspect of people but it isnt good to keep yourself in denial that all people are the same, all people are kind and nice, all people ARE friends. times and again you need time for yourself to reorganise your thoughts, your life, your judgements or maybe even your friends to see what you had been through, what u have gotten as of now, what you had give and shared and most impt what your life had been going on!
is it so hard to reach out to new people?
for all i know as of now, it's so exhausting and mind straining to meet and understand new people. u tend to be more protective of yourself than ever and along the way u start closing yourself up in order to keep urself sane. the more new ones u meet, the more kind of "faces" you got to put up and pretend which in terms u lose yourself in the long run.
speak their words? crap.
i dont really enjoy the process of losing myself and having to wear a mask to everyone i see and speak their bullshit. i need serenity in myself. i dont enjoy people to mess up my beliefs or to even change my beliefs. i am who i am. im trying hard to keep myself as compose as ever. im so gotta learn to be myself again. myself and the new self combine shld be a greater me. =)
although im trying to start loving everyone again but do grant me some stress-free new good friends, i'll be glad and appreciate that. spare me from those buzzers. i dont need such ppl to come mess up my life. quality is more worth that quantity =))
good o'times are rare so its best to treasure everytime u get to enjoy it.
each have their own individual life but the effort to meet up is much appreciated.
i know i've my good o'friends, my buddies.
i shld be feeling happy, contented, fortunate, blessed.
thank you for being there from then till now. our friendship road is still a "comma" and it will continue to be so. =)Labels: awakening