the day before yesterday, i dreamt of something (which i am not very sure of) that's related to my ah gong. it's quite vivid i cant rmb exactly wats going on but at that moment, i tot that the main cast was my ah gong.
it's quite disturbing to dream of him because he seldom appear in our(my paternal family members n my family) dreams. the very first time i dreamt of him was he fell down and died which came out true. ROARS! now i dreamt of him behaving like some senile old man. so weird. thats all i can rmb.
ytd night thought of him, start from how he dont wish to visit doctor because he felt his throat got a lump (which chinese people mostly think is being heaty aka "Bu Jua" in hokkien.). in any other ways, my whole family will also think that way. the lump there i really think is Bu Jua becoz he been eating heaty food almost all his life and he always believe he cant live past 70(old ppl always have their beliefs when their life gg to end and more he's those Tiao Dang ppl) so he went to indulge in those seafoods(which he not suppose to especially he old liao leh! cannot Pai Du easily) etc to eat fill his life thats y the lump!
ya he did went to chinese sinseh but after taken once or twice, he concluded that the medicine is of no effect so he refuse to consume anymore. -______-" he tot elixir meh! kaoz. drag n drag n drag.. and he scared already.. scared die.. so went to western doctor..
* i tell u ah, if u nv been to doc all ur life, Better dont ever go. else u sure die! especially when any part swollen they will put it as LUMP in wherever and nid operation! -_-" when it might just be a Bu Jua situation!! okok, if it doesnt threaten ur life, dont operate k. check up can. haha.*
so ya he went see doc den doc say duno wat lah. then must operate. hurr. worst still, it's at the throat there.. so.. the voice cord was cut off also.. NO VOICE! how the hell an old man survive with no voice to call? ... all these still not the worst. he actually fell down twice in the toilet. but i guess it's his stubborn nature he might not accept help from others becoz he want Face! so maybe the nurse want to bring him to toilet and he insist on gg his own. -_-
all was still okay. now back home. it was really funny how that stubborn old man willing to let me feed him milk! haha. becoz his throat was operated so he gotta be feed with milk using tube to fill his stomach. pathetic. he still can smile when i feed. surprise as he had always been a stern stubborn old man, ok he just look fierce, so no ppl dare to approach. after that he went rest.. i went to peek, he turned n smile at me and i siam away. paiseh lah. he seldom like that one.
the next morning.. tadah~ he fell and hit the back of his head. blood vessel burst.. so.. died in the brain =(
it never fails to make my heart ache whenever i thought of that last smile and cried badly to know, that
was the last time i could ever see it.
finish being sad. he will forever be kept at the back of my heart! ='(
time to move on. =) look forward to happy times!Labels: dreams, ramblings